A Word from the Producer

If the world has taught me one thing it's that life's not fair.  At one point in time I believed this adage summed up all that is evil about the world.  I'm a sucker for dramatic news stories, and unfortunately most of them are very distressing.  They are riddled with stories of how the innocent are murdered, the poor are neglected, and society is increasingly becoming depressed.

As i've grown up in a wonderful family with a loving dad and mom and the most supportive brother one could have, i've slowly realized that my life's not very fair either. In a lot of ways I'm much worse than the innocent who's lives have been taken, the scrooges who keep from the poor, and I too was once very depressed.  I find myself asking "what did I do to deserve all the love, confidence, and general blessing I have?"

The short and most truthful answer would be, "nothing."  The joy I now have could never have been obtained by myself; the family I was born into was not of my choosing; the love I am shown could not be earned, and no matter how hard I work for money or material gain it ultimately only has one good use - to be given away.  Otherwise, I can't keep it when I die.

To be very honest, my bio isn't so much one about myself.  Looking back at my life, all the things that have ever mattered to me have been about God.  Every pivotal moment and change I can relate directly to God's grace upon my life.  I can't rightly brag about who I am, or what I've done, or what I own, without mentioning the blatant fact that God has, is, and always will be behind everything in my life.  My life isn't about me, it's about Him.

Of course, very often my life does a poor job reflecting this statement.  As I mentioned early on - in a lot of ways I'm just as bad as the murderer, the careless, and the apathetic -although many might not see it on the outside.  Thankfully I know someone who has pulled, is pulling, and will pull me out of my wretched state.  His name is Jesus, whom I believe to be the Son of God.

 And it is in this way that I have come to believe the saying "life's not fair" is the most promising and joyous expression of all.  It is solely by God's saving grace that I will one day be in heaven with Him.  I certainly do not deserve it, no honest jury would exclaim my life is worthy of perfection - of God's righteousness.  But God took it upon Himself to sacrifice His only Son for my sake - an action that altered the course of history and changed my life forever.  Life's not fair, and thank God it's not.

- James Thayer